Going, Going, Gone

So escrow closed today on my house. My home. My Ex-home. And I just feel numb and empty. I had made my peace, as much as I could, and shed my tears the last time I was there two weeks ago. In my heart it was already gone and I knew it. But today it's official. It's now someone else's home. And I'm just filled with incredible sadness. Because it isn't just the home that's gone, it's also the last, tenuous link I still had to my former life. It's like sitting in a lifeboat, watching as the fantail of the Titanic finally dips below the sea, and realizing you are truly alone, in the middle of nowhere, adrift.

And unlike the survivors of the Titanic, help is definitely not on the way.